Poetry

My attempt at writing poetry from a few years ago...
P.S. I'm really not this depressing in person! Just a little over-dramatic now and then. ;)

Never the Same

I looked into your eyes,

And wished we’d never said goodbye.

I saw the memories of yesterday,

And wished you could come back some way.

I remember those final words

That I dream I never heard.

I thought you would be here forever,

Even in the rainy weather.

My dreams of love will never be

Because you underestimated me.

You had problems you couldn’t control,

But it was my heart that you stole.

I was your best friend, your sole mate,

But I guess now it’s too late.

I used to think we’d get back together.

Now I know that day will be never.

My heart is broken because of our past.

The good, the bad memories will always last.

I wish I could say that I’ll be fine,

And the heart that you’re holding isn’t mine.

Now is the hardest thing to say.

It’s goodbye forever, not until “someday.”

Your big brown eyes always made me smile.

For you, I’d catch a star, run a mile.

But here and now the love story ends.

Broken and Worthless

I was once filled with happiness and laughter.

But now, nothing seems to matter.

You were the world to me.

My heart is ripped open and empty.

I thought you loved me. I thought you cared.

Now I realize all you thought about was Claire.

Living in a fairytale world only lasted a while.

When you looked at me, my heart would smile.

I can’t believe I was so clueless.

To you, I am simply worthless.

I poured out the last of my soul to you.

Little did I know, you had another girl to run to.

As I read your true feelings, I could feel my heart break.

My time is wasted because you’re completely fake.

I wish I could say that I’ll be fine.

And that the heart you’re holding isn’t mine.

But, because of you, I can’t tell a lie.

I’m so broken, I wish I could die.

Every moment of my life is yours to keep.

Don’t you see that I cry myself to sleep?

If only there was a way to describe

The feeling I get when I look into your eyes.

You never understood how much you meant.

This connection was never an accident.

Each day, I’m forced to have a smiling face.

Then reality hits, no one could take your place.

I can’t hide my feelings much longer.

While I’m getting weaker, you’re growing stronger.

You’re still Prince Charming, but I’m no longer Cinderella.

Here, there’s no safety blanket, no protective umbrella.

The girl of your dreams is standing by your side.

My breathe is gone, the last tear I’ve cried.

For you, life moves on.

For me, my hope is gone.

When you’re with her, please don’t remember me.

I want you to remain complete and carefree.

My life is ruined and filled with darkness.

It is forever broken and worthless.

WONDERING WHY

The warmth of a late spring breeze

Weaving wearily among the bud-laced trees.

Specks of bronze light leaking through

And painting pictures of a heavenly hue.

The lighthearted chatter of two feathery friends,

Their honey-sweet harmonies ceasing to end.

Dawn-awakened flowers releasing a delicate breathe

Like a soothing whisper sent to calm a sudden death.

As the billowing clouds sail along the endless blue sky,

Sometimes, I can’t help but wonder why.

“God, why did You create this breathtaking place

And leave my heart with only an empty space?”